Sorry for being so dead this past month, I've barely done anything artsy at all and just like the title says, work got straight on the best of me this time. I worked a full 100 hrs this month instead of 80 (like my contract says), that's almost as much as full-time. I'm in this constant state of being exhausted, feeling dizzy and just trying to pull myself through.
I went to see a doctor yesterday because of this dizzy feeling I have all the time. You know, that kinda dizzy you feel when you circled around on one of those revolving desk chairs for too long. Or rolling down a 5 mile hill. Sometimes it's not that bad, and at other times I feel like somebody is rocking me from side to side, sometimes my vision slides along with it ; v;
My doctor said it's something like a "dizzy syndrome" , something you have when you were exposed for a lot of stress, physically or mentally, while not getting the kind of relief or relaxation you'd need to balance things out. So now I sometimes sit there, trying to balance myself while only sitting. So he wrote me off of work for this week, I'll be going again next week, of course.
I feel super bad for calling in sick just before christmas, but I can't function well at work, sometimes I found myself having a super bad dizzy wave coming in and I felt like somebody tried to pull a carpet away from under my feet. I lost my complete trail of thoughts completely while giving out my customer's change.
Gosh, only writing about this makes me feel super dizzy again. I guess it's really all this stress from home and from work. I might have to look for a different job to apply for, if this keeps happening.
Just thought I'd let you know what's been up etc, since I haven't spoken to many of you, and I'm really sorry for that
I felt so overwhelmed with everything all of a sudden, I hid on tumblr the whole time. Or just falling asleep the second I came home. I'll try better from here on!